hm i think i am on the verge of being screwed. my wwnk project is full of uncertainties, i don't know how to and have not started on my cmsk proposal and nothing has been done for sads. time passed so fast and the projects are due in the coming week. my birthday week looks like it sucks. bogged down by so much projects and no will to do it. omg. just came home from E!hub, watched indiana jones and i must say it is not bad. ok the plot is corny but overall it is quite good.

to watch list currently:

• the mummy 3
• kungfu panda
• narnia (maybe?)

ok this is so wrong. i should not be thinking about movies at this point of time. got to start on my cmsk proposal. work time.

bye
written at 7:28 PM

Together When...
Ayumi Hamasaki

bokutachi wa kokoro ni onaji
kizuato wo nokoshi nagara
sei wo muketa mama furikaerazuni
sotto tsuyoku arukidashimashita

kawaranai hitotsu no mono wo
mitsuketa to shinjite ita
futari wa sore ga kawatte iku no wo
kanjite ippo hanareta
yagate sara ni ippo hanareta
kizutsuka nai you ni

arigatou *tte* iitakatta
arigatou *tte* ienakatta
datte sore ja maru de eien no
sayonara mitai de kanashi sugiru kara
itsuka mata boku wa boku ni umarekawatte
kimi wo sagasu tabini deru n darou

aru nichi futo shita shunkan ni
jibun de eranda hazu no
atarashikute minarenu keshiki ni
sukoshi tomadotte itara
maru de kimi no you na yasashii
kaze ga fukinukemashita

aishiteru to iitakatta
aishiteru to ienakatta
dakedo sore wa boku no saidai no
uso de ari shinjitsu datta you na kigasuru
itsuka mata boku wa boku ni umarekawatte
kimi wo sagasu tabini deru n darou

arigatou *tte* iitakatta
arigatou *tte* ienakatta
datte sore ja maru de eien no
sayonara mitai de kanashi sugiru

aishiteru to iitakatta
aishiteru to ienakatta
dakedo sore wa boku no saidai no
uso de ari shinjitsu datta you na kigasuru
moshimo betsu no dareka ni umarekawatte mo
kimi wo sagasu tabini deru kara


this is like my most fav song from ayumi. maybe i might change my blog song away to this. haha.

bye
written at 2:10 AM

hm ok suddenly started watching shake it. i don't know why lol. well if one excludes the impure thoughts that come to mind when watching this video, i think that koda kumi can dance really well. i hope her concert DVD comes into Singapore soon. its the only one that i have not downloaded yet to watch it first before buying. so i'm praying hard that it comes to Singapore soon. and also, can someone tell me where i can get posters of koda kumi -_-. i have been wanting one for like 3 years already.

bye
written at 2:06 AM

hm, next week 18 already. somehow i'm not feeling up to it. i feel like i'm not ready to welcome this new upcoming year for me. i still yearn to wallow in the comfort of my younger teenage years. when i think of the future, don't really know what exactly i wanna do. what comes after NS? more studies? work? if its work, what sort of field should i get into? if its studies, even i myself am not sure if i want to to continue studying in this line. yes the job prospects are great. yes the demand is high. but somehow, the job scope doesn't seem very "alive". like as though its dead. i don't know maybe i just have not seen the true nature of this field yet. wait, maybe i'm thinking too far lol. maybe i should just try and score well for my diploma 1st before even thinking so far. well not that i'm not scoring well yet (ok abit haolian here lol) but i think i could do better. hm. going to apply for basic theory next week with melvin and maybe zutu. somehow the number 18 just makes me feel alot older den when i turned 17. i think sometimes i do suffer from inferiority complex lol. i wonder if people around me think i suck or something (well im pretty sure some of you out there really think i do and as a matter of fact maybe even you, the one who is reading it now think so). i realised that i am getting more and more concerned of how people think of me. now is this called sensitive or inferiority complex? lol. i feel like i have 2 conscious mentalities in me all the time. i don't know if i should quote an example so i hv decided to keep it to myself in consideration that there will be people reading this. i probably would hv written it down if this was a private diary. lol. or maybe its jus another of those clash of thoughts where i sort of want people to see but i also dont want them to see. -_-. ok i think im being very lengthy already so i shall end here.

bye

ok i just realised that one could actually see quite alot of chiobu even in temples. even though temples are usually steroetyped with old aunties and uncles but if you look out carefully you do see some pretty girls around haha. ok wrong thoughts. lol. god forgive me.
written at 2:32 AM

“I hate my guy’s friends!”

I’ll never forget the guy I dated whose three best friends were like a group of seventh-grade (mean) girls. His pals needed to “approve” me, gossiped way too much and spent more on clothes and hair products than I did. Ick. I just couldn’t get past his high-maintenance trio.

We’ve all been there: Great-seeming guys, nightmare friends. How do you know when to deal with his buddies and when to run? We asked psychotherapist and relationship expert Ellen Chute whether each of these types of friends could be tamed:

Hateful Friend #1—The inside jokester
Elizabeth, 32, of Chicago, was on the fence about a guy she’d been dating a few months, but when she met his friends, she knew that she needed to make a break. “The guy was intelligent, but he had low self-esteem,” she says. When she met his friends (who all worked in the same IT department), they didn’t include her in any conversations but instead made weird inside jokes all night. “It was awful,” she says. “His friends seemed to lack the basic social skills necessary to talk to someone they didn’t already know, and I started to see my date was no different.”

How to make nice: First, let your date know you feel left out. Believe it or not, he may not realize you’re not hanging on their every word. Try saying: “Hey, it seems like you guys are really close, but when you tell all those stories about work people, I feel like an outsider.” If he says, “We just get like that when we’re together”—that’s not good. But if he apologies and promises to steer the topic away from inside references to middle-school hijinks, then you know he has a sensitivity chip. And who knows? You may find his friends are actually more socially-evolved once they get talking about mainstream topics like Barack Obama or global warming.

Hateful Friend #2—The Vince Vaughn type
This is the guy who — like the characters Vince Vaughn inevitably plays — tries to convince your date that women are balls and chains and he’s better off without you. Briana, 31, of Los Angeles, can relate. She fell in love with her boyfriend right away, but loathed his best friend. He constantly put her down and tried to persuade her boyfriend to give Briana the boot. But she wasn’t going to let one jerk scare her away from a great guy. So she decided to be the bigger person and reach out to his friend. “When I needed to book a speaker for work, I called him, and he hooked me up with someone,” she says. “He was great and made me shine at work—and I made him shine.” He ended up apologizing and telling Briana he had her pegged all wrong. “I think he gained respect for me when he saw that I was able to separate work from our personal problems.” Now, Briana, her beau and his bud all hang out happily.

How to make nice: Remember: This pal isn’t your guy. And just because your man thinks his Old School-ish pal is amusing, doesn’t mean he values his opinion. Chances are, the VV type is jealous that your man found someone great. Or, he feels threatened that you’re taking his best friend away (really!). Do let your date know if the guy says something truly jerky (“You two will last maybe three weeks”). If he knows his friend is being rude to you and doesn’t do anything, or says something like, “Let it go” or “He talks to everyone that way,” then do yourself a huge favor and move on.

Hateful Friend #3—The player
How do you know this guy can’t keep it in his pants? Because he flirts with you! When Alison, 34, of Philadelphia, started dating Sam, his best friend propositioned her. “I never told Sam about Jude coming on to me because I felt like I could handle it,” she says. “When Jude suggested that we get together alone, I said, ‘No thanks.’” But Jude continued to make her feel uncomfortable, and Alison soon realized she didn’t like Sam enough to put up with his best friend, Mr. Octopus.

How to make nice: If it’s just a glance or two in your direction, try ignoring it (some guys just can’t help drooling over women). But if he makes a clear advance or says something truly suggestive, say something right away: “I’m dating Jason and am not at all interested in you.” And do tell your date, just in case he hears a twisted version of the story (“Man, it was crazy, your lady came on to me outside the bathroom”). Chances are, your date knows that his friend is a dog with women, and will (a) tell his pal to keep his hands off, and (b) keep you two apart as much as possible.

Hateful Friend #4—The mooch
So you’re dating a guy whose roommate thinks it’s fine to tag along for Thai food or to the movies? It happens. Amy, 26, of Farmington Hills, Michigan, was annoyed when her date’s roommate felt it was fine to hang out with them in front of the TV on an early date. She thought: What’s with a guy who lets his roommates join in a date? But she didn’t know how to get the roomie pal to quit hanging out with them.

How to make nice: Some folks are just clueless—and if your guy happens to room with one of these unfortunate souls, you shouldn’t hold it against him. That said, it’s not a good sign if your date can’t let his buddy know he’s not welcome on his dates. Let your date know you’d love to hang out more with him—and just with him. Let him know nicely that you’d prefer if the pal didn’t join. If his friend continues to show up, show your date to the door.

One last word of advice: A guy’s friends are very important to him (just as yours probably are to you). So know that you may have to tolerate some times with a less than favorite person, but if your guy’s a keeper, it’s worth it!

lol this was a msn articale i happened to see. quite interesting. i wonder if i fall into any of the categories lol.

bye
written at 2:35 PM

CCN for the 2nd time. ok we did make quite a decent amount of profit and this time round, there was 2 sprayers compared to last year when i was doing it all alone -_-. and the second sprayer is ben lee! ok hes actually quite good at it but i actually was hoping that there would be someone else who would spray also so i can slack xD. there was this so damn intricate design that this freshie wanted on her leg. lol daryl spent like so much time on it la and and its like damn nice la. rx pointed out that her legs were sexy lol. no doubt la, she was like quite sexy la but its like so damn wrong when a girl finds another girl sexy and tells it to her bf (wtf?) and omg when i came out of the toilet happen to see raymond and michelle. and i got scammed into buying those choc fondues for like 5 bucks -_-. lol. ok it was not bad but way too sweet for my taste. so in exchange raymond and michelle came to my booth to get tattoos done. but wth no one helped me. my fingers like abit fat ah. how am i supposed to handle those blank spaces in letters like a and b -_-. later my freshies came to hv tattoo. clemen and donovan already came earlier but clemen wanted to have another one lol. TS, lin, chermaine and jason also had some tattooes done before we close shop. and den there was these clear aunties who also wanted la but too bad close le den SQ gave them the green tea. went to seoul garden after that for dinner. wa shiok sia the fish rawks lol. saw simin and her fren (hm..maybe bf? lol) at the escalator there while i was inside seoul garden. best part is that is my fren pointed out to me de. he was like "eh, simin leh". lol. that fella frm punggol sec also so knew her by face lol. went home den played dota and some cabal. was sleepy a few moments ago but now suddenly awake again. -_-

bye

ok although CCN was optional, thanks guys for those that put in the effort to come and help out. great thank you to you guys lol.
written at 3:22 AM

nth much today. ponned school cos it was raining and it was only a 2 hour lecture. and wtf y is there cmsk tml still? screw u anne john i hate u. lol im jus kidding. still, im so not gonna rush out a draft for the proposal -_-

bye
written at 12:20 AM

today found out smthg very interesting. lol if my fren nv tell me abt it i also wldnt know. anyways i realised that this person is stl reading my blog altho this person posted all that stuff on that person's own blog. roflmao this is so amusing la. well, who cares anyways. the internet is a place of freedom. no one can stop others from visiting a unprotected to site. but say really, if its filthy jus throw it away la. ill assume that i accidently threw money into a rubbish bin. wait, i dont need to assume. it is true -_- i threw money into a rubbish bin lol.

and well...

w00t! man u won the season and on top of that the win was legitimate. win by 2 points ok! chelsea can go die. arsenal too (haha ivy, this is for pouring water at me when i was unaware xD) and wth man, man city got raped by middlesborough 8-1. -_- unbelievable.

and great. its 3.14am and im stl not asleep. lets hope i do not oversleep or else wei is gonna emo again. rofl

bye
written at 3:09 AM

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY CLEMEN

wa today v fun sia bbq to celebrate clemen bday. but from 2pm-7pm kao damn boring lol. at 1st tio tua cos raymond sms tell me 2pm. end up go there only saw TS and wilson. talk cock many den saw this damn random guy suddenly go to the beach in front of us and try to fish. damn funny la den TS and wilson take photo. after that we go sit at the pit 18 there den wth got bird shit right on the table den my hand kenna -.-. 3pm den luqman and cookie monster came. they heard coasta sands den thought is east coast LOL. den we contnue wait until 3.30 den TS decided to call. told us go E!hub but wth we go there den end up tell us to go bak pit 18. continue talk cock many but with more ppl now den clemen plan amazing race thing. didnt play den stone with danny and lincoln lol. when they finally came back started playing water bombs. ivy damn vengeful sia. i squirt her abit water nia she take cup pour on me when i unaware. -_- end up play until wet wet de no appetite eat. ate abit den after cut cake eat cake went 400+ there slack with lin and TS. slack until like 12.30 den decided to go home le. hell today was fun man. loved it. thanks alot guys for the fun.

bye
written at 1:01 AM

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

damn sleepy now but somehow i dont wan to delay otherwise i forget what i wanna post. anyways today was another of those long days. kinda sucked lol. 1st time in this semester i brought lappy. lappy damn heavy la den on a crowded bus damn inconvenient. did this interesting quiz and somehow it is true is quite a number of factors lol. anyways...

key issue: so u think i actually bothered to wish u? -_- thats so naive. my frens jus told me that i shud at least do that. and say really, if i did it on a tag, doesnt the large blocks of words "insincerity" come to ur mind? heh the remarks i saw was so laughable lol. and jus give it some thought: so u dont mind having a fren that doesnt do anything for u and jus leeches stuff frm u without even ever having a proper conversation for once? lol if the answer is yes den i really have no comments. well actually i do but im guessing its too harsh to be in here xD.

bye

i didnt really care if i wasnt repaid in any way, its jus the coldness that i could no longer stand. i think u do need to reflect on ur own actions first before u make such a comment. think about when was the last time u ever talked to me without trying to leech something from me. i guess that was like ages ago or something even i dont remember.

written at 10:25 PM

rahh... today had lecture frm 2-4, law. seems that pokcs is missing for a while, so that law tut lecturer took over. lester crashed my lecture today. seems he woke up late and had a test today so he ponned. -.- came to my house at 8am when i was sleeping and call me ask me open door. den supposed to hv cmsk consultation at 5pm but wtf! she 5.45 den call me to ask me and damien go see her. WTS. jus when i was leaving sia. went home and saw lester and wei playing dynasty warr 5. went for dinner before going to airport. dad came home today. but the paper nv say what terminal den i see is not SIA i tot is terminal 1. end up is terminal 3. -_-

trying to dl romance of the three kingdoms 11 on ps2 now. lol.

bye

is a gf really of such paramount importance to a guy?...
written at 1:19 AM

omg im now obsessed with this song "sea of love". lol. hm anyways today is a certain someone's birthday, but say really, to be honest i don't really care anymore (and neither do i care if this person happens to see this post). after all its my blog i put the stuff i want on it and if u don't like it don't read it. i remember how i foolishly splurged on that item a year ago and now, i think back and wonder if u even treasured it or not. i guess at the end of the day, the only time i see a msn conversation from u is when u need a song or 2. am i just a tool to u? i finally realised what a fool i was. seems that i was nothing to u in the 1st place, ain't that true? i can safely say i hv learnt frm this past experience and i guess i shud have u to thank for that experience. i have learnt what it feels like to try my best to do something for someone only to realise that the person doesn't even appreciate it one bit or it doesn't even matter at all. however, if i look at the positive side of it, i could say i learned to give without taking. end of the day, looking at the positive sides of this whole thing is jus to console myself. lol.

this day shall mark the end of this chapter. if u ever read this im guessing that we will never be on talking terms ever again but anyways...i dont give a damn. doesn't make a difference to the current situation.

bye
written at 1:52 AM

TSUBAKI SEA OF LOVE ~ENGLISH VERSION~ LYRICS

love, it always makes me heave a sigh
love, i know it shows me smiles and joys
but love, it sometimes makes me lose my sight
so i say i'll never fall in love again

if you want me to trust your words
if you want me to take your hands
if you want me to hold each other
show me what i want

you wonder why i wanna be with you
you need to understand the reasons,but
i can believe in you will make me strong
so i'll be over yester-love
i know i have to face the fear and tears
to be close to you
please don't make me drift away
keep your eyes on me in the sea of love

once we fall into the sea of love
we can't keep the senses as before
love will ask us too much than we can
till the day we lose our faith and fall apart

i think it's won't last forever
we're not meant to be together
no one but you can save me
from the despair in my heart

i wonder why you wanna be with me
no matter where we are, don't let me go
give a thousand words of love to me
to let me make sure where i am
i know you 're always done your best for me
to be close to me
you are only one for me
keep my eyes on you

sea of love
just you and i can see
the sea of love
spread the end of love
please show me the light and let me through
say come to me
hold out your hand to me
to let me be in your love
the things i need to be is your honesty

you wonder why i wanna be with you
you need to understand the reason,but
i can believe in you will make me strong
so i'll be over yester-love
i know i have to face the fear and tears
to be close to you
please don't make me drift away
keep your eyes on me

i wonder why you wanna be with me
no matter where we are,don't let me go
give a thousand words of love to me
to let me make sure where i am

i know you're always done your best for me
to be close to me
you're only one for me
take my hand
you're only one for me
keep your eyes on me
in the sea of love
written at 10:45 PM

ok, so its monday already at 3.30am and i cant sleep and yet 1st lesson is SADS lab at 9am. omgggg. if i wake up late wei is gonna kill me lol. lemme try to go and sleep.

btw, tag if u want me to link u. im not into the habit of linking ppl. my prev blogskins i all removed the link part lol and if no one wants me to link ill jus remove the link part again.

i wonder if anyone even visits in the 1st place...-_-

bye
written at 3:33 AM

right, so i decided to post a little again but what the heck. dunno what to post ._. just watched finish densha otoko AGAIN since a certain "friend" of mine wanted to watch it. however this time round watched it on my lcd tv, very shiok. big screen sia lol. jus started betting on soccer recently to pay for my freakin mahjong debts but winnings damn little leh

however after watching densha otoko again, makes me wonder if a gf really gives that much joy to a man and on top of that the girl in the show like a perfect gf sia lol wtf. where got girl so good de sia so pretty, dont mind the bf is a short and poor otaku (obsessed with smthg, in this case anime and game). in this world where got such a girl de lol all the girls now all so bloody realistic and money face-ed. if got ah, i think the bf will be like the most lucky guy in the world or smthg, better den win toto 8m lol. but the confession is really damn drama, how ever its a good drama la. shud watch.

current opinion: girls are nth but trouble.
i wonder who will it ever be to change away that mentality of mine lol

bye
written at 12:42 AM

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